That's the look he likes to see on Ḥeḥ's face, even if Khnum accepts all of the bad ones too. ]
I do want to meet every single part of you, and I will rise to that fucking challenge, habibat alqalb. It doesn't have to be all at once, some can be at their own pace. I want to get to know each and every one of them, in some way.
[ If that means simply friendship or something different from what he has with Ḥeḥ - that is perfectly fine with him. Absolutely smirking up at his lover at the chuckle. ]
You can see this anytime you fucking want.
[ Khnum would gladly give him a show or lie here just so Ḥeḥ could look and touch. His gaze doesn't leave his lover's face as that hand moves over his body. Then his arms go around Ḥeḥ, one hand finding purchase in dual-colored hair.
While the other talks, he's quiet. Gently squeezing and holding close because, of course Ḥeḥ would know the exact amount of time down to the second. His head turns just enough to drop kisses into his lover's hair. ]
A parent's worst nightmare is when they outlive their children, just because we're gods doesn't make that any easier. Having to go through that - it isn't only a nightmare - it's pure fucking torture. These are the kind of scars that don't heal easily.
[ His other hand moves over Ḥeḥ's back, petting it soothingly. ]
You will see them again, be able to hold them again. And you won't be alone in looking after them.
[ The expression lingers through the first part, easily. ]
A few want to meet you soon, actually. [ kissing the corner of his lips ] Maybe we can arrange that after this?
[ ... Maybe a break would be nice after such a heavy conversation. He doesn't really even need to leave to let Khnum meet them, either. He could just curl up on the bed while he does. A nap sounds nice, too...
Especially given the heaviness of the conversation, already. He relaxes under the kisses, quietly listening to Khnum's words. The hand moving along his back helps a lot, too. Just having his lover here helps, though, so it was pretty much a given. He nods to the last part. ]
That will be... up to them. I know, for Viktor, it will be painfully difficult. With everything coming up... While I can't make out everything, I know that he'll be struggling with it. Ellie will...
[ He releases a quiet breath. ]
She'll hate me, at first... regardless of how I tell her. She has a lot of anger and pain. And then Anise... will be a unique case.
[ With that, he falls quiet for a moment. ]
Regardless, I'll just happy to have them in my life, at all. And... [ leaning up to kiss Khnum's cheek, his own cheeks shining just a bit from tears ] having you there with me...
[ He rests a hand against the side of Khnum's face, not bothering to hide that he's crying. ]
I won't deny just how much I need that. [ thumb sliding along Khnum's cheek ] The... one person I let myself feel some selfishness with.
[ Khnum in his life, in general, means everything and more. He isn't ashamed to admit that. ]
I'm very glad to hear that. [ That some are that eager. Pressing into that kiss a little. ] For you - any of you - I have no problem clearing my schedule.
[ He won't protest whatever Ḥeḥ wants to do after this - whether it's curl up and nap or go for that swim he was intending. Khnum wouldn't want to leave his lover's side afterwards anyway.
Since it's helping, he keeps doing it. Though the hand on Ḥeḥ's back may now be writing sweet things in various languages - words such as "cherish" or "forever" and "smitten kitten". ]
No matter how they feel, it won't change how you feel for them. And when it comes to you loving someone - you have endless patience to wait for them. If it gets too hard then you can lean on me.
[ As someone who has been loved by Ḥeḥ for a long time (longer than he knew), he knows just how his lover can be. If waiting is best for his children, Ḥeḥ will do it. And Khnum will be here to support him the whole way since being strong for his children can still be too much in private.
A thumb moves over a wet cheek but he doesn't attempt to stop the tears. Crying can suck but also help emotions that have been bottled up for such a long time. He's honored that Ḥeḥ is allowing him to see this vulnerable state. ]
There is no place I'd rather be than where you are. [ That is the full truth. ] So if you need me there, I fucking will be.
[ Leaning over to brush their lips together softly and briefly. ] One of my most selfish desires is to make you happy so I have no problem with this.
[ The other selfish desire is to be with Ḥeḥ so he's glad for all of this. For getting that side of his lover too. ]
Some are shyer than others. [ another kiss ] But I trust you'll be patient with them.
[ He shivers just a tiny bit at those words, the faintest glint in his eyes. With the next spoken words, he gives a look of appreciation and a nod. ]
Patience... that's always been easy, for me, especially with those I love. [ given he loves almost endlessly, well... ] And even more so with you and my closest family.
[ So, yes... he'll be able to wait for them. Even when it hurts—especially then. The next part gets a quiet, endeared laugh. And he melts into that brief kiss, closing his eyes and nodding. ]
I know.
[ Just the hint of teasing there; since of course he knows. Granted, the teasing is downright minuscule; even without Knowing, he still knows. The same way he still knows Khnum loves him so very much, simply from the way the god looks at him, touches him, kisses him, he knows Khnum wants to make him happy. Every action speaks that on a level he's always able to feel, even when shutting out the Knowing. ]
Even when... [ spoken quietly as he closes his eyes ] I was in the cage, you never left my mind. Focusing on you so much... that's what kept enough hope within me. I was able to continue existing, and eventually break free.
[ Lifting up enough to look at Khnum's face, he manages another small smile. ]
When looked at that way, you helped save an entire multiverse. [ very soft, teasing tone ] How does it feel?
Shy ones, cute. [ Spoken with a smile. ] I won't break that trust.
[ And he means that. Honestly, Khnum doesn't expect them all to be like Ḥeḥ and getting to know them is his first priority over anything else. ]
You can do it, I know you can. And you will always have a safe place to come to afterwards. [ Dropping another kiss in his lover's hair.
The hand that was making words on Ḥeḥ's back finds the edge of the robe and slips underneath to bare skin. Yet he doesn't do much more than continue running his fingers over his lover's skin gently. Completely content to leave the touch as innocent and simply soothing.
An eyebrow raises at the confession of always being on Ḥeḥ's mind even in the cage. He hums quietly. ]
The same was true for me, I was always thinking about you. That I knew you would find your way back to me and do whatever it took to do so.
[ Even if Khnum didn't know where Ḥeḥ had gone or what was keeping him away, that belief and hope never wavered.
Leaning in to kiss his lover's nose with an equally teasing sparkle to his eye. ]
I suppose I can add it to my book of achievements. [ Said lightly because truly, he doesn't want that kind of praise from the entire multiverse. He gave up being Enki and was content to live a simpler life of Khnum. ] Though it's definitely towards the back, after all the things I'm far more proud of achieving.
[ Khnum is now... rolling them both over so Ḥeḥ is beneath him, leaning down to kiss him. Still, not intending to start anything. ]
First and foremost will always be: falling in love with you every second of every day.
[ That first sentence gets a quiet laugh, and then he nods at the second one. There's only faith in his eyes, in that smile. And that faith remains as Khnum says the next thing, gaze softening.
He relaxes as his lover's hand comes to rest on his back, eyes closed as he simply enjoys the feeling. Listens to the words. He leans up and brushes kisses over the god's forehead and cheeks, nodding again. Words don't feel needed; Khnum knows he's right to have thought what he did.
And that kiss to his nose has a smile tugging at his lips. As does Khnum rolling them over, which also gets a quiet laugh. ]
You are wonderfully simple. [ leaning up to kiss his lips ] I'll always love that about you.
[ Really the biggest understatement, considering that's one of so many things he'll always love about him, but... y'know. He playfully hooks a leg around Khnum, drawing him into a loving embrace, nuzzling into his neck. It feels really nice being able to enjoy moments like this again... Especially after being able to talk about the things he just did. It feels very... human, in many ways. A luxury, given all that's happening around them. ]
[ Good, Khnum is very glad to see that he can ease away the worries and fear after they've been talking about. That even with those emotions still existing, Ḥeḥ can look at him that way. Not breaking that faith seems so easy when his lover doesn't have a single doubt in his expression.
Even something as small as being able to touch Ḥeḥ, to have him within reach, it never feels small or simple. Each one is precious and possibly catalogued in his mind, along with the reactions he gets for them. He wants to always be a calm, safe place that Ḥeḥ can return to when the rest of the world is storming around him.
Khnum rests his head upon a hand even as he keeps his place on top of Ḥeḥ. A finger of his other hand trailing down his lover's nose softly. ]
I work hard to be so simple, the wonderful part comes easily. [ Teasing lightly. ] I could lay here and tell you all the things I love about you but we'd never fucking move again.
[ And that is - heh, the god's honest truth. Neither of them need to put how much they love each other into words, actions say it for them and Khnum hears Ḥeḥ loud and clear. He smirks down at his lover when the leg comes around him but is easily drawn into the embrace and nuzzling. Kisses are placed on whatever skin he can reach as he draws this out just a little bit longer.
Then Khnum pulls back just enough to be able to look at Ḥeḥ's face again with tenderness. ]
Feel better or is there anything else you need to get off your chest first? [ Ah, looks down at his own body which is definitely on Ḥeḥ's chest. The next part is said lightly: ] Though I'm not ready to move just yet so that's not allowed.
[ He playfully wrinkles his nose, and then lifts his head to nip at the finger. There's barely any effort to harm, naturally. He's grinning softly at those next words, eyes twinkling. ]
Oh, definitely not... Especially when you add in the fact that I wouldn't let you do that without returning the favor. [ gently tapping Khnum's nose with one finger, an amused grin on his lips, at the last part ] And I do...
[ Ḥeḥ pauses for a moment. ]
There are more things to talk about, but I'd rather leave it for another time. Soon, though.
[ Spacing it out makes it easier. He seals that promise, too, with a kiss to the lips. ]
[ Khnum doesn't even attempt to pull that finger away, merely looks on in amusement at the nip. He will run it over Ḥeḥ's lips flirtatiously though. ]
So we'd be here forever, sounds like a plan for another day. [ When that tap to the nose comes, he just grins down at Ḥeḥ. Then reaches out to thread those wayward, impish fingers together with his own. Pressing it flat to the couch with minimum strength. ] Another time, then.
[ There's no need to rush or push. He knows his lover will tell him later. Today was already difficult with the conversation they had.
Leaning into that kiss. ] Hm, I think I should send you off with pleasant thoughts.
How do you feel I should do that? [ Said with a sly glint in his eyes. As if he doesn't have one very exact idea in mind. ]
[ He kisses the finger as it's run over his lips, and then chuckles. The hand that's pressed flat to the couch easily rests there. He tilts his head to the side, humming. ]
Given we already have forever ahead of us, perhaps it should be a daily thing. [ small wink ] I'd happily set aside some time for expressing appreciation for my beloved.
[ Oh, but then that last part... He easily sees the glint and he leans up, slowly kissing a trail down Khnum's neck. ]
Pleasant thoughts always exist to at least some degree, whenever I'm with you. But, as always, I feel happy to go with your idea.
[ He doesn't even need to access the power of Knowing to have at least a very solid idea. ]
[ Going to lean down and suck a mark into Ḥeḥ's neck because he loves to see it later. It's quite the turn-on, knowing his love could easily outmatch him but gives so easily. ]
Sounds like a very pleasant way to start every day to me. [ He chuckles at the joke. ] Careful or I might steal all of your time.
[ Even if... he knows Ḥeḥ would give it willingly. Hums blissfully at the kisses he's recieving and releases that hand. ]
You are a picture of temptation and I could hardly fucking bare to tear myself away without giving some kind of worship to my one and only god.
[ Absolutely said with a seductive tone as he slides his way down to his lover's erection. Which he then takes it all in his mouth. ]
[ He gasps softly at the feeling, breathing out slowly as leans his head a little further to the side. And that most certainly goes both ways; he's incredibly turned on by the way Khnum takes charge, by the way he'll leave marks everywhere...
Those words have his cheeks darkening, especially given the tone. A small smile tugs at his lips as he slides his fingers through those blue locks. There's a slightly sharp exhale as his lover's lips wrap around his dick. He closes his eyes for a moment, letting his head lower back to the couch.
Even if it's not as much of a shock to the system as that first night together, since his escape, there's still nothing else like it. Sure, there are other amazing things they do together, but the feeling of Khnum's mouth there is in a class of its own. ]
[ The fact that Ḥeḥ consents to let the marks to stay is very attractive, allows him to look back at what he did last time. To see his handiwork later because Ḥeḥ loves him to the point to let him do it in the first place.
Just the way Khnum would never worship another this way, only Ḥeḥ and whatever of his aspects are interested in this. Seeing those cheeks darken is amazing in the light of day and his head presses into those fingers. While Ḥeḥ isn't looking down at him, Khnum's gaze never leaves his lover's face - wanting him to have a release so he can properly relax afterwards.
He is only interested in giving right now, so he is going to bring Ḥeḥ over the edge with just his mouth. Which is working up and down the length slowly even as he hollows his cheeks and uses his tongue to lavish affection upon the appendage. He even hums to throw in a little vibration for stimulation. ]
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That's the look he likes to see on Ḥeḥ's face, even if Khnum accepts all of the bad ones too. ]
I do want to meet every single part of you, and I will rise to that fucking challenge, habibat alqalb. It doesn't have to be all at once, some can be at their own pace. I want to get to know each and every one of them, in some way.
[ If that means simply friendship or something different from what he has with Ḥeḥ - that is perfectly fine with him. Absolutely smirking up at his lover at the chuckle. ]
You can see this anytime you fucking want.
[ Khnum would gladly give him a show or lie here just so Ḥeḥ could look and touch. His gaze doesn't leave his lover's face as that hand moves over his body. Then his arms go around Ḥeḥ, one hand finding purchase in dual-colored hair.
While the other talks, he's quiet. Gently squeezing and holding close because, of course Ḥeḥ would know the exact amount of time down to the second. His head turns just enough to drop kisses into his lover's hair. ]
A parent's worst nightmare is when they outlive their children, just because we're gods doesn't make that any easier. Having to go through that - it isn't only a nightmare - it's pure fucking torture. These are the kind of scars that don't heal easily.
[ His other hand moves over Ḥeḥ's back, petting it soothingly. ]
You will see them again, be able to hold them again. And you won't be alone in looking after them.
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A few want to meet you soon, actually. [ kissing the corner of his lips ] Maybe we can arrange that after this?
[ ... Maybe a break would be nice after such a heavy conversation. He doesn't really even need to leave to let Khnum meet them, either. He could just curl up on the bed while he does. A nap sounds nice, too...
Especially given the heaviness of the conversation, already. He relaxes under the kisses, quietly listening to Khnum's words. The hand moving along his back helps a lot, too. Just having his lover here helps, though, so it was pretty much a given. He nods to the last part. ]
That will be... up to them. I know, for Viktor, it will be painfully difficult. With everything coming up... While I can't make out everything, I know that he'll be struggling with it. Ellie will...
[ He releases a quiet breath. ]
She'll hate me, at first... regardless of how I tell her. She has a lot of anger and pain. And then Anise... will be a unique case.
[ With that, he falls quiet for a moment. ]
Regardless, I'll just happy to have them in my life, at all. And... [ leaning up to kiss Khnum's cheek, his own cheeks shining just a bit from tears ] having you there with me...
[ He rests a hand against the side of Khnum's face, not bothering to hide that he's crying. ]
I won't deny just how much I need that. [ thumb sliding along Khnum's cheek ] The... one person I let myself feel some selfishness with.
[ Khnum in his life, in general, means everything and more. He isn't ashamed to admit that. ]
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I'm very glad to hear that. [ That some are that eager. Pressing into that kiss a little. ] For you - any of you - I have no problem clearing my schedule.
[ He won't protest whatever Ḥeḥ wants to do after this - whether it's curl up and nap or go for that swim he was intending. Khnum wouldn't want to leave his lover's side afterwards anyway.
Since it's helping, he keeps doing it. Though the hand on Ḥeḥ's back may now be writing sweet things in various languages - words such as "cherish" or "forever" and "smitten kitten". ]
No matter how they feel, it won't change how you feel for them. And when it comes to you loving someone - you have endless patience to wait for them. If it gets too hard then you can lean on me.
[ As someone who has been loved by Ḥeḥ for a long time (longer than he knew), he knows just how his lover can be. If waiting is best for his children, Ḥeḥ will do it. And Khnum will be here to support him the whole way since being strong for his children can still be too much in private.
A thumb moves over a wet cheek but he doesn't attempt to stop the tears. Crying can suck but also help emotions that have been bottled up for such a long time. He's honored that Ḥeḥ is allowing him to see this vulnerable state. ]
There is no place I'd rather be than where you are. [ That is the full truth. ] So if you need me there, I fucking will be.
[ Leaning over to brush their lips together softly and briefly. ] One of my most selfish desires is to make you happy so I have no problem with this.
[ The other selfish desire is to be with Ḥeḥ so he's glad for all of this. For getting that side of his lover too. ]
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Some are shyer than others. [ another kiss ] But I trust you'll be patient with them.
[ He shivers just a tiny bit at those words, the faintest glint in his eyes. With the next spoken words, he gives a look of appreciation and a nod. ]
Patience... that's always been easy, for me, especially with those I love. [ given he loves almost endlessly, well... ] And even more so with you and my closest family.
[ So, yes... he'll be able to wait for them. Even when it hurts—especially then. The next part gets a quiet, endeared laugh. And he melts into that brief kiss, closing his eyes and nodding. ]
I know.
[ Just the hint of teasing there; since of course he knows. Granted, the teasing is downright minuscule; even without Knowing, he still knows. The same way he still knows Khnum loves him so very much, simply from the way the god looks at him, touches him, kisses him, he knows Khnum wants to make him happy. Every action speaks that on a level he's always able to feel, even when shutting out the Knowing. ]
Even when... [ spoken quietly as he closes his eyes ] I was in the cage, you never left my mind. Focusing on you so much... that's what kept enough hope within me. I was able to continue existing, and eventually break free.
[ Lifting up enough to look at Khnum's face, he manages another small smile. ]
When looked at that way, you helped save an entire multiverse. [ very soft, teasing tone ] How does it feel?
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Shy ones, cute. [ Spoken with a smile. ] I won't break that trust.
[ And he means that. Honestly, Khnum doesn't expect them all to be like Ḥeḥ and getting to know them is his first priority over anything else. ]
You can do it, I know you can. And you will always have a safe place to come to afterwards. [ Dropping another kiss in his lover's hair.
The hand that was making words on Ḥeḥ's back finds the edge of the robe and slips underneath to bare skin. Yet he doesn't do much more than continue running his fingers over his lover's skin gently. Completely content to leave the touch as innocent and simply soothing.
An eyebrow raises at the confession of always being on Ḥeḥ's mind even in the cage. He hums quietly. ]
The same was true for me, I was always thinking about you. That I knew you would find your way back to me and do whatever it took to do so.
[ Even if Khnum didn't know where Ḥeḥ had gone or what was keeping him away, that belief and hope never wavered.
Leaning in to kiss his lover's nose with an equally teasing sparkle to his eye. ]
I suppose I can add it to my book of achievements. [ Said lightly because truly, he doesn't want that kind of praise from the entire multiverse. He gave up being Enki and was content to live a simpler life of Khnum. ] Though it's definitely towards the back, after all the things I'm far more proud of achieving.
[ Khnum is now... rolling them both over so Ḥeḥ is beneath him, leaning down to kiss him. Still, not intending to start anything. ]
First and foremost will always be: falling in love with you every second of every day.
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He relaxes as his lover's hand comes to rest on his back, eyes closed as he simply enjoys the feeling. Listens to the words. He leans up and brushes kisses over the god's forehead and cheeks, nodding again. Words don't feel needed; Khnum knows he's right to have thought what he did.
And that kiss to his nose has a smile tugging at his lips. As does Khnum rolling them over, which also gets a quiet laugh. ]
You are wonderfully simple. [ leaning up to kiss his lips ] I'll always love that about you.
[ Really the biggest understatement, considering that's one of so many things he'll always love about him, but... y'know. He playfully hooks a leg around Khnum, drawing him into a loving embrace, nuzzling into his neck. It feels really nice being able to enjoy moments like this again... Especially after being able to talk about the things he just did. It feels very... human, in many ways. A luxury, given all that's happening around them. ]
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Even something as small as being able to touch Ḥeḥ, to have him within reach, it never feels small or simple. Each one is precious and possibly catalogued in his mind, along with the reactions he gets for them. He wants to always be a calm, safe place that Ḥeḥ can return to when the rest of the world is storming around him.
Khnum rests his head upon a hand even as he keeps his place on top of Ḥeḥ. A finger of his other hand trailing down his lover's nose softly. ]
I work hard to be so simple, the wonderful part comes easily. [ Teasing lightly. ] I could lay here and tell you all the things I love about you but we'd never fucking move again.
[ And that is - heh, the god's honest truth. Neither of them need to put how much they love each other into words, actions say it for them and Khnum hears Ḥeḥ loud and clear. He smirks down at his lover when the leg comes around him but is easily drawn into the embrace and nuzzling. Kisses are placed on whatever skin he can reach as he draws this out just a little bit longer.
Then Khnum pulls back just enough to be able to look at Ḥeḥ's face again with tenderness. ]
Feel better or is there anything else you need to get off your chest first? [ Ah, looks down at his own body which is definitely on Ḥeḥ's chest. The next part is said lightly: ] Though I'm not ready to move just yet so that's not allowed.
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Oh, definitely not... Especially when you add in the fact that I wouldn't let you do that without returning the favor. [ gently tapping Khnum's nose with one finger, an amused grin on his lips, at the last part ] And I do...
[ Ḥeḥ pauses for a moment. ]
There are more things to talk about, but I'd rather leave it for another time. Soon, though.
[ Spacing it out makes it easier. He seals that promise, too, with a kiss to the lips. ]
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So we'd be here forever, sounds like a plan for another day. [ When that tap to the nose comes, he just grins down at Ḥeḥ. Then reaches out to thread those wayward, impish fingers together with his own. Pressing it flat to the couch with minimum strength. ] Another time, then.
[ There's no need to rush or push. He knows his lover will tell him later. Today was already difficult with the conversation they had.
Leaning into that kiss. ] Hm, I think I should send you off with pleasant thoughts.
How do you feel I should do that? [ Said with a sly glint in his eyes. As if he doesn't have one very exact idea in mind. ]
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Given we already have forever ahead of us, perhaps it should be a daily thing. [ small wink ] I'd happily set aside some time for expressing appreciation for my beloved.
[ Oh, but then that last part... He easily sees the glint and he leans up, slowly kissing a trail down Khnum's neck. ]
Pleasant thoughts always exist to at least some degree, whenever I'm with you. But, as always, I feel happy to go with your idea.
[ He doesn't even need to access the power of Knowing to have at least a very solid idea. ]
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Sounds like a very pleasant way to start every day to me. [ He chuckles at the joke. ] Careful or I might steal all of your time.
[ Even if... he knows Ḥeḥ would give it willingly. Hums blissfully at the kisses he's recieving and releases that hand. ]
You are a picture of temptation and I could hardly fucking bare to tear myself away without giving some kind of worship to my one and only god.
[ Absolutely said with a seductive tone as he slides his way down to his lover's erection. Which he then takes it all in his mouth. ]
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Those words have his cheeks darkening, especially given the tone. A small smile tugs at his lips as he slides his fingers through those blue locks. There's a slightly sharp exhale as his lover's lips wrap around his dick. He closes his eyes for a moment, letting his head lower back to the couch.
Even if it's not as much of a shock to the system as that first night together, since his escape, there's still nothing else like it. Sure, there are other amazing things they do together, but the feeling of Khnum's mouth there is in a class of its own. ]
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Just the way Khnum would never worship another this way, only Ḥeḥ and whatever of his aspects are interested in this. Seeing those cheeks darken is amazing in the light of day and his head presses into those fingers. While Ḥeḥ isn't looking down at him, Khnum's gaze never leaves his lover's face - wanting him to have a release so he can properly relax afterwards.
He is only interested in giving right now, so he is going to bring Ḥeḥ over the edge with just his mouth. Which is working up and down the length slowly even as he hollows his cheeks and uses his tongue to lavish affection upon the appendage. He even hums to throw in a little vibration for stimulation. ]